Parshas Beha'alosecha - 5783 - How to React to the Fires Raging in the world & the Fires Raging In Our Hearts

Based on the Nesivos Shalom pg. 52-53. Why does  Hashem punish the jews so much for complaining and wanting to eat Kosher meat ? What is worse : A Jew who does not sin, but wants to be far away from Hashem; or a Jew who feels  terrible  as he  is  sinning ? 2 great stories about 1) keeping Shabbos; and 2) The Chutzpa of a Rasha to a tzaddik.